How is your Heart?

How is your Heart?
Yesterday night I was able to attend a Beth Moore Bible study called Wishing up. It is much different than a normal study by Beth Moore because there is no homework to be done. I missed last weeks study, but thankfully some of my friends caught me up on it. I knew this was going to be a hard study to take part in, and I knew I had to go.

Lately I had been complaining about being so tired of being tired, and not having any answers our explanations for anything. I have been on this emotional whirlwind of a journey for the past month or so, and it had just about claimed insanity over me. I didn't know what this bible study was going to be about, and truthfully I had no idea my church was hosting another one until my friend asked if I was going to go. Unfortunately, like I mentioned before I was unable to attend the first meeting but my girlfriends informed me that this study would be perfect for me.

The study topic was: The Heart of Wisdom, and I just have to share with you all what I was able to get from the study last night.

I think Beth Moore is keeping us mainly in Proverbs as we embark on this 6 week study. Just like she said last night, I will warn all my readers of this.... "God has come to mess with us today!" This was not easy information for me to receive, and I pray that God will guide my every key stroke so that I may pass on the same message to you all from my perspective.

Beth Moore starts out with a little factoid, "The Book of Proverbs uses the word "heart" 75 times." Since there are only 31 chapters in the book of Proverbs this tells me that there must be something important that I should learn about my heart. She goes on to say that in Proverbs 4:23 it explains the absolute priority attention the heart is to receive over all other human faculties. You know, I have always grown up with people saying, "you have to protect your heart.", "You can't trust your heart." or "Your heart is the master deceiver." well, La da da de do! my response, often not verbalized, was always "Why do you care?", "It's not your heart, so let me do with it what I want since it is mine after all." But as life progressed for me, I soon began to realize just how important my heart was. After many heartaches and hurt to disappointment and depression, I started to realize that my heart just may be the keeper of my emotions.

Well I can tell you, This study was not peaches and cream for me. It was a huge eye opener and will be a huge challenge for me to completely understand and apply it to my life. Proverbs 4:23 says, Keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life.

This means, that I must guard my heart with passion because everything I take in comes out through my heart. Beth made a point to say that our hearts can be a powerful toll against the darkness, but unguarded Satan has the power to manipulate and use my heart in wrong ways. I realized that I have been protecting my heart for a very long time, but not like it is mentioned in Proverbs rather I have been protecting it from everything and that includes God. He already knows my heart, But what about me? How well do I know my heart? *gasp* When this questioned was asked, I became paralyzed in my seat. I thought I knew my heart, It's definitely a crazy one but could it actually be that I don't really understand my heart? I don't think Beth is very far behind with this question.

Its interesting how the Bible and some commentary's describe the heart. "Biblically speaking, the heart is "the seat of intentions, thoughts, and emotions" and serves "as the control for the rest of human anatomy." the commentary calls it "the seat of [Tiffany Morans] dearest treasure."

WOW, so if this is true my heart is really the thing that controls most of my every actions. My heart tells my mouth how to speak and body to react and it is the thrown that holds onto my dearest treasures! My heart is one powerful thing, and I honestly don't know how to control it at this point. Its funny because I have mentioned that my emotions are to strong and I am weak to its power. Its no wonder why either, I would say I have to first understand my heart not try to figure out why my emotions are crazy. It's not a mental disorder, its a heart disorder.

I took away with the understanding that ALL wisdom and ALL folly reside in the heart. So what am I guarding my heart from? Wisdom or Folly? I want to guard it from folly and all evil and guard all pure things with-in it. I learned that Wisdom comes from the heart, That it is the only place open for God to pass through us. The thing that hit the most was, God cannot use me or offer me any wisdom if my heart is not completely his. I can't say to him, "Here God, you can have everything my heart has to offer but not my fear of change, God, I don't trust anybody with that." If even the smallest thing is guarded from God, He will not be able to pass through your heart. The Bible says, God searches the world daily for just one willing heart offered to him completely. I really want to give God my heart, and I really want to have wisdom but I'm not sure I'm willing to completely give it away and hold on to nothing. Are you? If you are, or have please share some of that wisdom with me.

I possess nothing any deeper or greater than my Heart, This means that my Heart is a very dangerous thing. But If Applied right, it is a very dangerous thing to Satan. A Guarded heart for Christ will protect you completely from Satan, He will no longer be able to use me or get to me any longer if my heart is applied the right way. God is asking me to trust him with my heart, So why is it so hard?

I learned that I have all of these types of Hearts;

1.) Anxious heart
2.)Isolated heart
3.)Hope-sick heart
4.)Hardened heart

I know exactly when I start to feel anxiety come over me and when it does I explode like a vicious volcano looking to destroy what ever is in its path. I get Anxiety when my husband, friends or parents do not understand me but I want so desperately for them to. Or when things aren't going exactly how I want them to, or when I'm just flat out overwhelmed.

Something that struck me hard was, I have anxiety issues and it holds me down. Every time I give into my anxiety, I bow down bow down to it like prisoners before their captain. It all just boils down to me just flat out having an obedience problem. All anxiety is rooted in Control, And I desperate want to feel like I have control over everything. But I am SINNING if I continue to live like this, because God say's not to worry or be anxious because he is in control. He tells us to pray over being anxious, Not so that we can have it but that when ever I do feel anxious I would bow down to HIM instead of ANXIETY... 1 Peter 5:7 says, Cast on our anxiety on Christ, the moment you feel it throw it to him. This means that even if I began to look like a schizophrenic person because I am crying out loud to God every time I feel anxiety just throwing on him, because I feel anxiety about every 10 minutes of the day, then so be it! Anxiety turns into fear as soon as we realize we don't have control over something. Let me tell you, I want NOTHING to do with my anxiety anymore, and I must say "This is yours God, you are in control of this." And further more, Manipulation is control just another way of it.


I have an Isolated heat, because Not one person truly can understand what I am going through. You could take two people with the same issue but they will process it very differently emotionally. There are certain things that I just wont ever be able to make clear to other people.

I have a Hope-sick heart because I am a jealous person. I can't tell you how many times I've just thrown my hands up in the air proclaimed that I'm DONE or that I wont pray for that issue anymore, Its just useless or even I can't believe that they got this and I have been wanting that for the longest time!!! doing this only show's how "hopeless' I am.

I have a Hardened heart because I cut people out of my life or certain things I'm not willing to hear. The cold hard truth is, Every time I say, "I don't care" or cut myself out to someone, I have just committed murder! Any one who hates is a murderer according to the Bible, acting like you don't care is murder. I am guilty of committing emotional murder daily!

I have to Guard my heart like a prisoner chained to the wrist of Christ. Nothing is more foolish that a hard heart. Not with holding one thing, I have to bring my whole heart to Christ, because he can only work with all of it.

Once I am able to do this, He will show me the power to overcome the Devil!!! This is all I ever want.

I am daily working on all of these issues, but its not going to be an easy one. However I am more aware of everything mentioned and I hope through the years I will become much stronger.

Thank you Lord for bringing this information to my ears, You know just how hard it is going to be for me and I thank you for your patience. Please continue to lead me in the right direction. Amen

Journey Together,Love Jesus, Bring Hope to the World

God Bless you